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ok ima rewrite what happened yesterday now.

after school me and 3 friends, 1 a teacher and my close friend other her sister also my friend and the 3rd was my closest friend. they took me to work and wanted to see how i worked and wanted to try out the food from milk and honey. turned out as i walked in, i see more friends from after working at milk and honey and also cathy…i knew shit was about. to. go. down…after everything was settled and my friends got their food etc. i started work. it ran pretty smooth. surrounding was clear, bright, cafe. cathy sitting in the corner booth, my coach/friends were sitting on the table next to her, and other friends table next to my friends.

it gets creepy, this is the part where my mind changed about EVERYTHING. i knew right then and there when my friend, ngoc came out of the restroom and told me what happened, cathy got out of the booth, as she slid out she opened the vanilla folder where ngocs paperwork was in and took a peek! REALLY!?? WTF!? who the fuck does that shit!? CRAZY!!!!! right then and there i knew. fuck this shit! ima die tonight! after that all my other friends told me the same thing: “SHE STARES AT THEM TOO DAMN MUCH” i had the immediate vibe that she was the jealous type. keep in mind I DO NOT want a girlfriend at the moment. PERIOD. i should have never agreed to the date last last night.

another innocent that happened was when my friend, keep in mind he is a buff dude who takes no shit from anyone. he looked up at the tv that cathy was under and was watching tv. as he looked down at her, she quickly glanced back at him. tough guy he is just stares her down. after not looking away he turns HIS head down. SHE made HIM stare away. thats CREEPY!

as i approach her, i told her straightforward, then and there. i didnt want to play games with her, i didnt want to lead her on or anything. i just wanted to cancel the date tonight, told her i had extended hours to work. (lie) she kept bringing on the excuse of how i told her i would go on a date with her tonight etc, THANK GOD I DIDNT! she kept pushing on the fact i said that and that i wanted a relationship with her, then and there i realized i did say that last night but that was in the moment of weakness where my nice guy instincts kicked in. i couldnt let her, a lonely, sad woman like that alone. so i said what i had to say. it sounds like i lead her on but i was really looking forward to everything..you know..until i found out the bitch was crazy. harsh words to say but true!

all day she wanted to talk privately about it as i was working. i couldnt have that i had 3 minutes to spare and i just kept trying to tell her i didnt want a relationship, this is why i didnt want one in the first place. it caused so much drama. omg! it sounded like she didnt get the hints i was telling her. I DO NOT WANT TO HANG OUT WITH YOU. of course i would never say that, that is TOO damn mean. more customers come in and she had no food so she was forced to leave. thank god. a couple hours passed and i told her i would call her on my break to talk to her more and get things straighten, as always she pushed the fact about last last night again. i get irritated. my friend was ease dropping to find out if the cathy was REALLY crazy, ask him and he will say “that bitch is crazzzzzzzyyyyy” keep in mind this is the buff dude. i told her over the phone. you know what. we cant do this anymore, i dont want to lead you on. lets just go back to how it was. im the waiter, you’re a customer. i told my friend if anything goes wrong, ill stomp twice, call me like you want me inside the restaurant so that way i didnt prolong the conversation. by now im paranoid she might do something dumb.

as i go home im traumatized by the day. i give her a call just to make sure she understood everything i told her. she did. but she wanted to be friends and STILL want to hang out with me. no. can. do. i told her, i find it awkward now that after what happened for the past 2 days made me have a weird vibe where we cant talk like that anymore. lets go back to me being a waiter and you a customer. and hope you understand. etc. etc. i dont think she did. i might have to get a restraining order. the bitch is crazy… i might have a stalker. i actually had my switch blade in my sock JUST in case. hopefully things go out fine and smooth. i just dont want to run into her again. its way too awkward. thanks for caring though guys. glad to know i have friends out there.

another thing, im not sure if i mentioned up there but. every single on of my friends today, keep in mind there were about…11 people on the booth tables next to cathy and all of them told me she kept starring them down, like mad dogging them, every time i talked to them and walked away…..shit… im glad i cancelled the date.

OH one more thing, she says she doesnt go to church and yet she has a bible and tells me she communicates with her friends to translate things and the reason why she was at milk and honey was because it was in the bible and she thought it was a place to find peace and how the lord guided her to me. CRAZY!…this was just too much. fuck this shit. single for the year.